He's got the whole world (and that includes me) in His hands

So I'm going through this period in my life where God is speaking to me about me A LOT! Some of it's good, some of it hurts but all of it is productive. One of the latest revelations I've had about me (that I tried to tell a friend about last night and got laughed at ;-) ) is that I'm a bad weather friend. Let me explain. There are some people that are fair weather friends...they are only committed to the friendship when things are good. Not me. I need to be needed. So when my friends are in drastic crisis...I'm their girl. I will be there for them at their beck and call. Which can be a good thing but only if it's kept in balance and see, balance has never been one of my strong points. I'm an extremist. Whatever I do whether good or bad I do to the extreme. So when said friend is in crisis I commit myself to the point where I don't have to deal with what's going on in my life because I'm so wrapped up in theirs. And that is not healthy! So I'm working on making some positive goals for MY life. Where do I want to see myself in 6 months? Not sure exactly how to answer that yet but I'm listening to the One who does. He's got this.

In other news it is 6 days until the election and I am freaking out a little bit! When Daddy ran for State Representative I wanted to win bad...but for kinda selfish reasons. I worked HARD on his campaign and well, he was my daddy. But this campaign is different. This one matters in ways that I don't think we can even fully realize yet. A very prominent lawyer in Houston sent out a memo supporting my dad and calling his election the second most important election in the state. This is why...



Right now the SBOE is stacked 8-7 with the liberals being the majority. When my dad wins (said in faith!) the tide will turn and the conservatives will be back in control. Just this morning Matthew D. Saber, the man that Huckabee is interviewing, came out in support of Daddy and that is a huge blessing. So, this election is not only important to my family and my children but to children all over our country. I shudder to think of the direction of education in America if Godless liberal people are in control. A young impressionable mind being filled with misinformation is a tragedy. I was taught when I was young that God has the whole world in his hands and that is where my peace comes. We are working hard and praying hard and the rest is in His hands.

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Teresa Crocker - October 23, 1951- Feburary 22, 1992

I think about her all the time, the one who deposited all this love and acceptance and hope in me. I think about her life what she meant to me and to so many others and I wonder. I wonder why she had such little time on this earth. I wonder what it would have been like to have her with me when I was giving birth to my own babies. I wonder how my life would have been different had she not gone home. I wonder what she would look like now. I wonder what she would think of the style of my hair. Most of all I wonder what I did to deserve her...even if it was only for 17 years. I miss you mom.

A tribute to all those still fighting...

Striving towards...

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Booo!!!

Why do I feel like I am making huge strides in certain areas of my life but then in very important other areas I feel like things are going nowhere?! It is unbelievably frustrating. I know that one way or another this too shall pass, I just feel my patience getting so thin. When things get hard like they are now my first inclination is to run. I just want to go away. It's why I've lived in every major city in Texas...seriously people ALL of them: Dallas, Houston, Austin, Lubbock, El Paso. Before I met Jesus that's what I did..when things got too hard I just moved. Know what that taught me? Location changes nothing and going around your problems instead of through them accomplishes nothing. So as bad as I would like to be halfway to anywhere but here right now... here I am rambling on my blog. That in and of itself is growth. I just have to keep reminding myself that God is in control and He knows what's best for me. I actually had a pretty amazing revelation on Gods best yesterday. I realized that the way I see my future and what 'Gods best' is for me I can only see through very human eyes. The options that I see for my future are so limited. But my God has plans and options for me that I could not imagine in my wildest dreams. He goes way beyond the way beyond. So I have to stop looking at what I can see and start fixing my eyes on the one who sees me...the only one who can really see me.

Valentines Day!

Postsecret is one of my favorite things to do on Sundays. I love this video and the strange, wonderful, sad, crazy, absolutely heavenly thing called love.

Get me off this roller coaster!

What an emotionally trying couple of days it has been. Wow. I'm not even sure how to explain all the sorrow, anger, tears, relief, joy and laughter that I have experienced in the last week. What I do know how to do is see God in ALL of it. I remember a time when I realized, at least much more than I have been lately, that emotions are just that...emotions. And what I knew then and still know now is that they will lie to you. If you live your life being lead by how you "feel" about people, situations and decisions you are sure to live a roller coaster life of insanity. And I, for one, am exhausted of 'listening to my heart' because the bible says that it is deceitful above all else. I choose today to cast down all imaginations and take every thought captive under the heading of Christ. I gotta get my mind saved people! And man, it takes work and discipline to do that! (Two things I'm not very fond of...hahaha). But I know that He promises me that all things are working for my good and that brings my favorite emotion...PEACE!!

On the road that leads me home...

Jennifer

Sooo....I looked up my name today in Urban Dictionary and this is what it said:

A funny girl. Really smart, and usually doesn't act her age (whether it be acting older or younger). Jennifer's have amazing eyes, and love to laugh and smile. They generally enjoy the finer things in life. They have trouble showing their feelings, and take some time to warm up to new people. They don't trust easily, but that shouldn't stop you from trusting them, they are very trustworthy. They need someone who will listen to them and give their honest opinion. Jennifers are very blunt, and speak their minds often. When she's mad, stand clear she might blow her top. But she doesn't get mad easily so you don't really have to worry about that. They are caring and usually very sexy. They know how to flirt in a very subtle way that drives men crazy. They know how to get what they want. Jennifers are very good friends.


This made me laugh for a thousand different reasons. Thank you Urban Dictionary...I needed that today.