Hahahahahahaha....

I was just reading my post and realized that I kept putting Little Wayne instead of Lil Wayne. I'm so white.

How to love...

Ok, first of all, I have now set this blog up to be able to update it by text (it used to be my other one...you can only have one) and so that is gonna make for more blog posts. What can I say? I'm impulsive sometimes. Lol...sometimes. Anyway...

I hardly ever listen to hip hop on the radio anymore but tonight I was waiting at the airport and flipping through the channels and caught this song on the radio and I gotta say, it freaked me out a little bit. I mean don't get me wrong..I'm as big of a Little Wayne fan as the next white girl but the fact that he was I don't know, soft enough? Wise enough? Insightful enough? for his music to speak the way it did to me tonight was a little shocking. Don't know why I'm really all that surprised though...God speaks through me which is proof enough that he can use anybody. This song so reminded me of me...not as much in the present, although I'm fully aware that I don't completely comprehend how to love and be loved yet, but in the recent past. Oh and make no mistake, I realize that me and about a million other girls can relate to this song but I sooo heard God's voice through Little Wayne tonight. And I think that fact makes God smile...big.

PS...no need to comment Kim...I know exactly what you're thinking. =)

Little Wayne knows my life!?? Details to follow!

Lord let every move that I make tell the story of your grace.

He makes my heart smile...

Just read this tweet from Rev. Run...

Swag = (S)aved (W)ith (A)mazing (G)race

My Jesus makes ALLL things new! =)

The repercussions of not having a "super secret" blog......
Why am I COMPLETELY over it.......until I'm not over it ?!!?!?!???

Well, I did it...

After posting my final entry in my "blog that no one knows about so I get to just vomit at the mouth" last week, I deleted it today. And as hard as it was to push that delete button (and it was really hard!) the chapter was over and it was time to let that part of my life go. As I looked over the last 2 years of my life I laughed a lot and cried a whole lot and shuddered and reminisced and almost vomited at some of the places that I let the devil and my own insecurities take me...it was wonderful and horrible all at the same time. Which is funny because that is exactly how I have been describing this thing that I call "my process"...wonderfully horrible....awesomely sucky...amazingly terrible. But all in all the feeling that it left me with was thankfulness. Thankful to the people that walked my ugly places with me to the best of their limited ability. Thankful to the circumstances that no matter how hard I tried to make them...just weren't enough to fill me up. Thankful to the true roots in my life who truly loved me and were there for me regardless of how ugly those places got. And most of all thankful to my Father who turned up the heat and allowed His refiners fire to reveal the broken places in me. And all the while He never left me, never forsook me and covered me constantly...even in the height of my rebellion. I have learned quite a bit lately that I know without a doubt and one of those things that I have complete and total unshakable faith in is that my God brings beauty for ashes and makes ALL things new. And so...I am just thankful.
I'm not sure what I'll do now...now that I don't have a secret place to vomit. Maybe, I'll journal more...maybe I'll start vomiting here...we'll see. But for now, in true Jennifer fashion, I'll leave with a song. =)

Oraia

I have no words for how powerful this is...

Dear Mumford and Sons,
I love you.
That is all.

"Buckness"

This speaks, loudly, on so many different levels of my soul.