Booo!!!

Why do I feel like I am making huge strides in certain areas of my life but then in very important other areas I feel like things are going nowhere?! It is unbelievably frustrating. I know that one way or another this too shall pass, I just feel my patience getting so thin. When things get hard like they are now my first inclination is to run. I just want to go away. It's why I've lived in every major city in Texas...seriously people ALL of them: Dallas, Houston, Austin, Lubbock, El Paso. Before I met Jesus that's what I did..when things got too hard I just moved. Know what that taught me? Location changes nothing and going around your problems instead of through them accomplishes nothing. So as bad as I would like to be halfway to anywhere but here right now... here I am rambling on my blog. That in and of itself is growth. I just have to keep reminding myself that God is in control and He knows what's best for me. I actually had a pretty amazing revelation on Gods best yesterday. I realized that the way I see my future and what 'Gods best' is for me I can only see through very human eyes. The options that I see for my future are so limited. But my God has plans and options for me that I could not imagine in my wildest dreams. He goes way beyond the way beyond. So I have to stop looking at what I can see and start fixing my eyes on the one who sees me...the only one who can really see me.